Friday, April 28, 2006

second week of school ended, the thing abt studying SUCK BIG TIME, but hanging out with my classmate aint that bad so, yea, i now can stop my pretence of being a lady like girl. HAHA. i know, bullshit. i'm never the lady. Anyway, crap really can link us up. hopefully this relationship with my classmates can go on and improve further.
OH, by the way, its only the second week and i skipped one tutorial, BUT not on purpose. (= then thats a totally different matter altogether. I just got mixed up with the timing.
i know my tutor will get a bad impression, but who cares? just pray hard that i can pass her module 'cause i can anticipate her sacrasm .. haha. okay, monday is coming, i.e labour day is coming. will be meeting my girlfriends lah. yea. meeeting them.

p/s will start work by May, back to my prev. job, actually i'm not totally happy/ unhappy there just that there will be times when i dont get appreciated and things like that, i hate it. but considering that i can keep myself busy and get things off my mind, yea, i'll do it. and for the money too! school texts and lecture notes are killing me, BURDEN! yea, so i'll start working hard too, for both work and studies.

still didnt speak to her since the other time. but ironically, i always meet her at the campus and we will walk pass each other like total strangers.. instead of meeting one of those bitch (jwen, HA! ) i always see her. there will be this awkwardness inside me and the indecisive me comes up, whether to talk to her or not. i'm no longer mad or whatever. its just that i cant bring myself to say hi or anything else. isn't it stupid? the best thing is none of them tries to bring us together and it seems like all has lost contact with her. is the 4 years together that fragile and worthless?
there will be this urge to confront them and wake them up.. am i that naive? sometimes i feel very disgusted when they pretend like nthing has happened.. and shes not our friend anymore. i hate it, hate the fact that despite telling myself to understand that its all human's nature, i still get upset and disgusted by it. i know i'm human too, thats why i often remind myself that i cant be like that too.
f. i just hate myself to the core.

did i mention that school has started for me? this is the first week so still quite slack and i just have to go for my tutorial and show my face and then i can leave.. class aint that fun 'cause i still am shy. i AM shy okay.. i'm trying to be as flexible as possible and trying to communicate with my classmates ah.. and i'm getting along well with some..
oh, one thing, i must brush up on my broken english 'cause my classmates include a canadian.. and most of them speak angmoh. haha.
john is forever complaining that my english suck. okay, i'm upset about it.. sob*

theres this good friday party ytd by gina and guys and they invited us there. very funny because gina acted in it and shes really good! after that went down to town, argh, we are such spendthrifts.. still need to take cab down.
we forced karinda to go catch Take The Lead and that show was great. love it lots, and touched me several times and now i wish i've got the spanish accent.
shopping spree again.
Thanks for the great day, cin and karinda. =)

wk has to go to ite and has been quite down, for what i can see. yet, i cant help him or at the very least, cheer him up. Feel damn useless once again. I hate it when i cant help when i really want to. Seeing him like this, pretending to be alright makes me feel more idiotic. And worse things are, i have to pretend to be happy. arrggh. i'm fked up, this i have to admit.

Today was the girls' night out. Pretty fun and enjoyed myself. Met up with my girlfriends and shopped around in town, and dined at Genki Sushi, MarinaSq. Food was nice over there and i guess thats so filling that i felt so like puking everything i've ate there. And we ordered food like theres no limit to our stomach capacity. I still got the disgusting feeling now. Ha. Then we went to sit around at esplanade and started our usual gossiping, crapping session. Fun lah. Much better than last week.
three stupid bitch.
KissyKissy
dumb right? its late and still putting shades.

Alrights, came back from my F.O camp. Shuriken Blast 06/07 . Quite fun overall lah. Went thru' pretty much, BUT! Red Alert cost me all my fun.
My group, TYPHOON was pretty fun lah, not sure why i so heng to get into the same group with yong sim and yan mei when the rest of the semb grads got into different groups themselves. Our DADDY and MUMMY, han and jasmine led us well.
Went to PA for our first 2 nights and one night in SP.
First night was NO FUN, cause Red Alert and i didnt get to roll in the mud and play in the drain. And in the day was not very good ah, everyone was still not used to the atmosphere but being flexible fellows, we managed to get along quite soon lah. OH MY GOD. I've no idea i would be so unlucky. In one of the games, we had to pair up with a oppo. sex to play, and i paired up with a guy that i hardly knew. And so we had to roll a dice to determine which fruit we have to transport it to the other end and another dice to determine which body part to use it to transport that fruit over. And being the SUAY one, i got lips and the guy got his stomach. And i got a twiny winy grape. Argh. Fortunately, the guy was quite nice. Btw, he is Kelvin. Part of TYPHOON.
Second night was definitely much more fun, had games that need creativity and got splashed with water with bee hoon and carrots and ching cao and beansprouts. Smells bad.
After that we had to go thru that haunted nightwalk. GOD, it was scary okay? okay lah, for me only lah.
Third night, was campfire night and last night ah. A bit sad by then. But everyone was really high. The highlight of the campfire was the Pageant of the Ah Gua. It was unexpecting. The guys had to dress up like a woman and had to do catwalk and dance. SO CHIO~
After that was disco night! No drinks but everyone remained high and danced thru'out. And we remained sober thru'out the night and break camp at about 3.
Memorable F.O camp. Its worth all the bruises and mosquito bites!